The photo of me on the index page was created
from the picture immediately below, taken shortly after I was commissioned 2LT.
I didn't have a portrait made after my promotion to 1LT
(other than the one from the newspaper below) or after I was promoted to Captain,
or after I received my Army Commendation Medal 

There wasn't a proud bone in my body in those days.

I spent many years prior to my PTSD therapy plagued with survivor's guilt
and intrusive thoughts about combat as a result of my combat service.
Most days remain a struggle to overcome
deeply implanted PTSD responses to stress.

2LT Cox, 19 years old

Combat Infantryman, age 20